The grief "to don't" list

After a death, people seem to think that there’s a grief checklist, a list of tasks to accomplish that lead to your grief being over. The person dies, you have a funeral, you’re sad for awhile, then you have to “move on,” whatever that means. Sometimes well-meaning family and friends decide that it’s time to help move things along. They start asking, “when are you going to donate all those clothes?” or, “don’t you think it’s time to get rid of the reading glasses?” They want you to rid yourself of the physical reminders of what you have lost as if that will help you “move on.”

Great news, though: you don’t have to get rid of anything. The people who are telling you this don’t understand that the clothes and the pictures and the glasses aren’t preventing you from getting over your loss. For some of us, keeping those things around is like having an anchor. There’s a reason we have cemeteries and shrines and altars to the dead: we want something physical to go to, to be near, to hold, so we can grieve.

After my mom died, a pair of her slippers stayed by the door for like, four years. I could not bear to move them. She had left them there, thinking she would be back to slip them on when it was cold in the house. She had touched them; that made them sacred. After awhile, the spell was broken and they were put to use by other feet. I can’t tell you why it changed; it just did.

This is all to say, there’s no rush to get rid of the stuff. You are not stuck in your grief if you aren’t ready to clean out the closet or put away the pictures or take off your wedding ring. On the contrary, you are moving through your grief by experiencing it. Some well-meaning (but very wrong) person may soon ask, “when are you going to get rid of all this stuff?” When they do, you can answer, “when it’s time.”